To My Dead Husband

July 18, 2018 2:19 PM

To My Dead Husband
What I'd say to my dead husband if I had the chance.

My husband killed himself on July 14, 2014. I referred to him here as Mr. Nerd.
I've been wanting to write something about him for quite awhile, and finally settled on writing him a letter. I tried to keep it simple and only go into the things I'd want him to know if he could actually read it.
There are other bits of writing in this blog, mostly stuff I wrote while on buses or trains and scanned in.

Role: writer

posted by luckynerd (8 comments total)

This is such beautiful writing, I hope it brought you some peace.
posted by ellieBOA at 4:47 AM on July 19, 2018 [1 favorite]

OMG. I’ve been active on the analog heaven mailing list for 22 years.

I have so many feelings. I didn’t know you were here on metafilter. That letter is so raw and honest, I don’t really know what else to say, other than I see you, you are important, your words are important and I’m here for you.
posted by nikaspark at 7:55 PM on July 22, 2018 [2 favorites]

Thanks! :)
Very pleasantly surprised that this got read by at least one AH person. I have a bunch of synth-related friends and acquaintances on FB, where I posted the link to the blog post as well.
posted by luckynerd at 4:01 PM on July 24, 2018 [1 favorite]

I'm glad you're here!
posted by nikaspark at 4:56 PM on July 24, 2018 [1 favorite]

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
posted by freya_lamb at 11:39 AM on August 2, 2018 [1 favorite]

That was difficult and lovely, thank you for sharing it.
posted by nenequesadilla at 7:23 PM on August 6, 2018 [1 favorite]

Thanks for writing this.
posted by lakeroon at 6:22 PM on August 24, 2018 [1 favorite]

Particular lines that resonated:

“ It would have been much better had you given me room to grow as an individual, rather than only grow as your soulmate.”

“I found the love you tried to convince me we had.”

Thank you hugely for sharing this.
posted by gregglind at 9:52 AM on September 1, 2018 [1 favorite]